rasta

happy bday feeeeeez

2006-02-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY
EIGHTEENth
BIRTHDAY
FEEZAKINS!!

hope ya enjoyed your day

hope ya enjoyed your prezzie more.. ;)

BABE ITS TIME TO MAKE OUR DREAMS COME TRUE..

WAT R U WAITNG FOR.. GO GET A lICENSE!!

im gonna say that for the next 10years of your life btw.. haha

anyways take care babeee!

i love ya!!

muuuuuaaacckkkkkzz!

for lisa

2006-02-18T19:00:00.000+08:00

hey lisa...

this is entirely for u... especially written for u...

im gonna try to say this the most nicest way i can cuz im burning with fury at this very moment......

listen.. the only reason why i told them is cuz ure hurting them.. can u stop torturing ppl? even if it gives u pleasure, stop hurtin ppl, esp the ppl who love u.. i dunno wat u want ppl to do for u.. theyre afraid they hurt u or smth cuz uve been ignoring their calls.. what is wrong with u? why do u do that? do u want to be pampered every single minute of the day? u want ppl to say "hey lis, wats my bestest friend doing? bla bla" and then 2 mins after they put down the phone with u, u expect them to call again.. is that it?????

it just pisses me off that u would do this to the 2 ppl who love u more than anything in the world.. and i care abt them, unlike u and thats why i told them.. i asked them if ya'll had argued but hey, cause of the whole thing? ure attitude problem.. why wasnt i surprised.... if u cant handle friends, dont make any let alone have best friends...

this isnt drama, its reality.. something u probably havent heard of... open up ure eyes.. the world doesnt revolve around u..... it never did... so talk to them, they dont deserve to be treated this badly........ i love them and dont u dare hurt them anymore......

2006-01-31T03:04:00.000+08:00

For you

Just like I predicted, we're at the point of no return
We can go backwards, and no corners have been turned
I can't control it, if I sink or if I swim
'Cause I chose the water that I'm in

And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You where willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine,
You're in not love this time...but it's alright.

I hear you talking, but your words don't mean a thing
I doubt you ever put your heart into anything
It's not much to ask for, to get back what I put in
But I chose the waters that I'm in

And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You where willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time...but it's alright.

What's your definition of the one?
What do you really want her to become?
No matter what I sacrifice it's still never enough.

Just like I predicted
I will sink before I swim
'Cause these are the waters that I'm in

If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You where willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time.
Oh, if it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You where willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time
You're not in love this time
You're not in love this time...

you know what.... im just gonna let you be.....

2006-01-22T06:33:00.000+08:00

back in borin dull singapore...

man, i wish i didnt ever have to come back... i dont feel right here.. i mean in emirates, i feel it like home.. here i feel it like a pool of quick sand.. like suckin the life outta everyone.... or like a landslide that has no mercy.. destroying everything and everyone....... yea.. thats how much i hate it here... my heart is not with me here.. its like i left it there... oh well.. i will go back and live there insyallah... i will....

so anyways, lifes fine... altho not the part where i have to unpack and clean up my room.. ahha..

i have nothing to say.. i mean i have been tooooo caught up with life that i had no time to blog and now i have nothing to say.... weiiirrd.. i never have nothing to say.. haha...

ok ok i have to clean up my room.. seriously.. there are clothes everywhere.. didnt noe i had that many clothes!!!!! well then, byee!!

mission completed!

2005-12-30T17:52:00.000+08:00

hahah hi!!!...

im so proud of myself........ one of my missions in life has been accomplished.. results more than expects..overwhelming... but mission completed!!! wont tell u wat! haha.... im the happiest girl alive.......!!!!!!!!!!!

went to global village... had tons of fun... saw african people dancing!! wooow..they shake their bootays better than anyone i noe... and the emirates dance.. omg thats my bigggesstt weakness... i swearrr......

im so glad im staying.. gonna go skii-ing soon and jet skiiing.. haha... and wild wadi i guess... its gonna be a b-l-a-s-t!! haha... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...!

if only i can stay here and never come back to singapore.. life's ended there... if i go back its not gonna be anything id like to keep in my memories......

watever... i have to go!!.. byeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!! WWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

2005-12-27T16:43:00.000+08:00

seriously... where the hell is everyone???

2005-12-11T04:48:00.000+08:00

oook hi...

i just finished speakin to my mum.... im leaving for yemen tomorrow with them to visit my grandparents.... wat im trynna say is in yemen, theres not really much hope for a 24/7 internet connection.. so therefore i wont be online too often..plus, i wont have my lappy with me... itll be in dubai with mona, WHO APPARENTLY is gonna abandon me in cold yemen....

anyways, the plan goes like this... ill leave for yemen tomorrow, ill spend 2 wks there.. and then come back to dubai for 4 days.. my fam will leave to singapore on the 28th of dec and i might stay a lil longer until jan or feb...

its weird that im actually gonna go to yemen but i just dont feel rite staying here if i can have the opportunity to visit my grandparents.. i mean who knows when Allah's gonna take them away...

well, gotta go pack.. GONNA MISS Y'ALL... fuddy [u will survive ;)],crazy elias (im so sorry!!), pzycho zilly ((still keepin the promise!! ;)! )),sexy feez,run-away jas, my baby smokey.. and everyone... haha..

ure all loved!!

2005-12-10T04:44:00.000+08:00

sexy feeza asked me to update so here i am.......!!

anyways, isnt it weird... when u want something, youll go all ends of the world to get it... and when you finally do, you realise its not what you want.... people tend to make decisions that lays an effect on others around without much thinking.. i make decisios without much thinking... well, truthfully, i do think, but id do wat others want me to do so i dont hurt anyone, without realising that the consequence to what ive done is gonna cause more misery than i ever intended to cause.... i dont noe if u understand this, but zilly should.. what im afraid now, if i make another decision, i might regret it and i hate regretting however i always end up doing just that....anyways, shant talk abt that alot.... i cant really do much abt it... ill just do wat zilly tells me cuz HES WISE... haha.. hi zilly! ahahha....

btw, has anyone seen jasmi? i need to talk to him!! where are u? huh huh huh??? im like a million miles away and i still have to run after u?? hehe..... hey jas, i realllly need to get smth off my chest so i better see u online soon or else im gonna start balding or something..

hi fuddy.................. watcha doing? haha... havent been online lately have u?? grounded huh???? or is ur mummy spendin more mother-son time together...?? haha

feeezzaaaa... sexinesssness... lemme see ur thang on the dance floor baby..! shake it like a polroid picture!! and btw, did u recieve nancy's song???????? and do u want amr diab or nancy agram??

sakoz and far.....................i miss u guys!!!! far, no one works on prom nite, and sak....$150.......... hahaha.. still waiting patiently... i should like add GST or smthing... once u guys pay me, im takin u both out for lunch on me!! haha.........

elias... I MADE U PROUD!! haha..

to kat and mohd.... happy honeymooning..!! dont forget to bring us snow...........!! since all the good things in life are free? haha....love love love u both!!

to my baby smokey...i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u, u cute lil thaaang..... u owe me a kissy wissy!! and make sure its not wet!!!!

prom? kat?

2005-12-05T05:48:00.000+08:00

prom? kat?.... kats more important... yup, i just said that...

anyways, kats wedding went smoothly alhamduillah, and so will her marriage, insyallah.. she looked so pretty yesterday..gorgeous.. breath taking.. she looked like a barbie doll.... she looked amazing..... and NOT FAT... okie, kat, URE NOT FAT. and neither is mohd, so can u both stop dieting and counting calories? its getting freaky and hellloo, eat normal food! no more meats of kangaroos, sharks, rabbits, grasshoppers and grosser stuff, people, remember.. EXTINCTION.. hahaha...

and kat, if ure reading this, please tell mohd im not a pyscho.. i mean many people name insects, rite? hahahahaha...

omg i miss kat.. more than anyone and anything.. and its just been a day of parting... sigggghhhhhh...... i love you kat..!! i doo.... u can tell by the way i write i love you..
(( when i really love someone, i'd write, i love you.. when i like someone and not sure if its love, itll be i luv u.. and ex cetra...)) so yea, i love you... haiz...

prom: hmm.. prom.. i dunno.. i only wanted to go for one reason the last time, but then something happened and my whole dream burst in my hands like a popped balloon.. so like theres no reason for me to go..so i have no semangat-ness to go for prom anymore... but i still wanna go and live my dream but hey, dreams never come true.. theyre just the impossible things that u noe u cant do.....

thanks is, for msging me during the rite times... ure 'advises' are helping me in this tragic loss of a sister.. ((haha, im such a drama queen, u shldve been there in the mall today, i was outta my mind)).. and hey, i wanna see ure coat!!!!!! show me show me show me....!!!!!!

HEY PEOPLE, TELL ME WAT HAPPENED IN PROM AFTER U GUYS COME BACK.... COMPLETE PRECISE DETAILS PREFERRED..

..love love..

i wanna go back!!!!!

2005-11-30T20:18:00.000+08:00

why is it the things i reallly wanna go to are forbidden in my life??

like for starters, iskhandars house is a place i reallllllly wanna go for hari raya visiting but never did..

then theres the major prom thingy coming up.. damn zilly (hehe).. whyd u talk abt it! im so depressed rite now!! sigh!!! like i really wanna go prom! i really wanna get all dressed up and lookin all glitz and glamish... but guess wat,im here and prom's there!! noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

life is unfair.. its unfair to me esp.. why is life always picking on me? im just a girl....................... pick on someone ur own size!!!! ARRRGGHH!! ok gtg now and beg my parents to let me go back to singapore (cant beleive im sayin this..)) haha.. i wanna go back!!!!!!

worst experiences?!

2005-11-29T03:50:00.000+08:00

okay.. so today, i experiences the worst experiences of all experiences...

so me and my couz decided to go indulge ourselves at a day in a lovely spa and decided that its time i lived up my name (sarah means princess)... i thot itll be as nice as it sounds but omg, was i in for pure torture!!!!!

firstly, i wanna tell every guy out there that they should thank their lucky star that theyre males.. u have no idea how lucky u are.. no idea..... so yea, i had to go for threading cuz i wanna look good for the wedding (i didnt do my eye brows).. omg, it was DREADFUL!!! it was sooo painful!! i left the room with the urge to burst out crying... omg.. it was horrible!!! its like having some sharped knife being rubbed strongly against ur skin....

then after that, i went for a coffee scrub.. haha.. ok.. that was the first time i had to go all commendoo!!!.. hahahaha.. as bad as it sounds, it was worse.. hahahah... shall keep the other details to myself, k?? then was the thai mud wrap.. ok that was funny.. being all wrapped up in plastic and FORCED to sleep when im feelin so claustrophobic.

and then the perfect combination treatment.. its a facial which killed me, literally.. she removed most of my facial imperfections with a freakin needle thingy... she dug here and dug there. the pain was unbearable but i tahan-ed it!! i did!! im so proud of myself! anyways, cuz of that, my nose feels like a newly born babies butt!! haha

i did other stuff too but shant bore u with it..and plus, most of it isnt for u to noe!!

the whole day costs abt 745.oo dhs... killa.. hahaha... gonna go back soon for another day of indulging and this time, without the torturing!

anyways, i enjoyed today weirdly...haha

ok.. BABY! LISTEN UP....... I NEED UR OPINION.. AND I HOPE U READ THIS WHEN U WAKE UP..... CHECK UR EMAIL... CHECK IT CHECK IT CHECK IT OR ILL BITE U... k? haha love u and miss u...............hehe mona's like .."eee so mushy".. haha we'll just see how more mushier helga and shrek are.. hahahaha.. muacks baby..

2005-11-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

note to everyone...

IF URE ANGRY, DONT FUCKIN TAKE IT ON EVERY SINGLE OTHER PERSON, ESP IF THE PERSON IS CLOSE TO YOU CUZ ITS FUCKING PISSING OFF.......

**its just a note, im not takin my anger on u..**

but seriously, wtf do u want me to do, pamper u and make u smile? i quitted that job already cuz i dun really care anymore......... and i dont care if ure pissed off just cuz that small thing..but u takin it on me when i am not fuckin involved with ur prob, thats just bullshit which i dun wish to even bother try to cheer u up with..

wateverrrrrrr............k? read my freakin lips... watever!!!!!!

and erm, baby, im sorry for the way ive been acting.. im just really lost.. i just want u to noe i love u fuddy.. i do.... :)....

2005-11-27T04:39:00.000+08:00

oh man.. this hating thing is prettyy tough for me, but when i do hate, man, the satisfaction..whoaa...

so yea, i kindda ran away from *you*... i mean im sorry i just ran off like that but i have my reasons....i mean honestly, i was seriously pissed and jealous at the same time so the mixture would really create unpleasantness but seriously.. how the hell do u think i felt when i ter-read "shes my best friend now" when i wanna be ur best friend too.. and to make matters worse, ure best friend is ur..well u noe wat she meant to u once.. so like that practically makes me second place... no matter how we try to hide it, thatll always be my position whether shes alive or dead.. im sorry im writin this on my blog but i dunno if i can go online tomorrow or if i want to..... cuz i wanna occupy myself.. i realised the more i go online, the more the reason im in uae disappears.. i mean i wanna run away from the problems and shit in singapore and here i am, online, gettin all kinds of crap.. the only non-problematic person i talk to is ***elias*** cuz man, he's always crackin me up with his perverntness and pornoficationatingness.. haha..crazy fella..

anyways, im just afraid of one thing.. my couz told me something.. and the last time she did, it turned out true.. and now im afraid it mite be true.. i mean i know u never wanna hurt me.. im not gonna lie and say i dun deserve u cuz i do deserve the best and ure the best.. but the thing is, im makin this hard for me and for u.. i dunno wats gotten into me, im not usually like this.. maybe im just so afraid that i mite lose u and i dun wanna but everything's just collapsing on mee....

**where did all my confidence in us go?????**

i dont noeee anymorrrrrrrrreee.. i never did.. oh shit.. i dunno wats happenin to me.. haiz.. watever it is, if **you** wanna talk to me or smth, email me and tell me wat time (SG) u'd be online and ill try to get myself to go online, ok??

****************...damn the world...******************

2005-11-26T01:24:00.000+08:00

if theres one word to describe me...

itll be :

FOOL

yup.. thats wat i am.. a freakin foooool.... damn the world.. damn everything....

i thot of wat ive been tellin everyone... ive been tellin them to smile.. to be more positive... and hoping they'd try that... but why didnt i ever think of being like them? negativeness.. i mean hey, if im smilin from only the inside, somethings really wrong.... dont u think?

so yea, i gotta change my ways... maybe i shld start hating... i shld try that.....cuz im reallly starting to hate things, people, everything.. i hate everything.. esp love.. i hate love.. and feelings.. wat bullshit.. its all bullshit.. love, life, me, u.. everything......

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

ironic?

2005-11-26T01:04:00.000+08:00

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think
A little too ironic...and yeah I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

away from the sun?

2005-11-25T13:51:00.001+08:00

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone do what I've done
I missed life
I missed the colours of the world
Can anyone go where I am

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I've known

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't do what I've done

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

2005-11-24T15:43:00.000+08:00

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh!! someones watching a movie...huh!?!?!?!? while im stuck here!!!! hhahahahahahahaha.. *muackz* ahaha....

im leaving on a jet plane

2005-11-23T18:23:00.000+08:00

im leaving.. on a jet plane.. i dont know when ill be back again...............

one hour til i go to the airport... dad wants to leave early so we dont rush in like kats grand entrance on the plane....

i dont noe how im feeling abt this trip... i wanna go cuz i wanna get out of this loophole yet, i wanna stay cuz i dont wanna hurt those who i love by making them miss me so much, ** you guys know who u r ((i love u guys!!))**
anyways, doubt id be staying long.... *2 mths tops,rite?* haha... oook i gotta go take a shower... love everyones who's loving me, and miss everyone who's gonna miss me..!!!!! *muackz*...

dont forget me!!!

*to my moron: dont miss me too much,k? i want ya to have fun here, in ugly old singapore :P! take care.. loving you... and missing you already..........*

*to fuad..: hahahahahahah ;) *wink wink* ahem

*to jas: 11 times not enough yet, huh? hey, u have 2 whole months, OR MORE, to go look for a hoootttiee!!!!... and when u do, u shld go get her!!! haha... take care of urself.. if anythings bothering you, message me.. remember, ill alwayssss listennnn... haha.... missing you soo much and lovee ya!!

*to far: farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

*to sakoz: saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak!

*to fadzil: hahaha someone loves himself a lil tooooo much ;)

*to everyone else: i love you and miss you

*to emirates: here i come, baby!!!!!

****

2005-11-23T10:28:00.000+08:00

ook im reallly pissed rite now.. and to think i was abt to let it all die away in silence....... i was asked not to bring u pain or torture or watever and i decided not to however i havent forgotten abt it and therefore i could change my mind anytime........ and rite now, all i wanna do, is fuckin kill you.......... u lied to me since the beginning? i bet u enjoyed being a lying, wait, of course u wld.. ure you..... thats the kindda shit u'd be doing to people... no wonder so many people hated you, and to think i was at your defence all the way.... if i knew you'd turn and diss me, i would have never bothered to look at your face or say a word to you for 4yrs............ becuz ure such a decieving bitch... if i were u, i would have killed myself a long time ago, cuz id be thinkin to myself wat a disgrace i am to the society....... ure a disgrace... i deleted u off my everything includin my memories. all the pics we took together, ur face is invisible to me....there's no more 'good' memories between us.... and if there were,maybe during the time u werent lying, i would throw that memory away, cuz they mean nothing to me... nothing.. and im glad....revenge was never my area however that doesnt mean i cant do it, and when i do it, u'd wish u never got on my bad side................

((to the other ppl, who actually is reading this entry, im trynnna be as nice as possible, cuz its my last day and i dont wish to ruin it becuz of that person))

desperately..

2005-11-21T03:03:00.000+08:00

Something 'bout the way you looked at me
Made me think for a moment,
That maybe we were meant to be
Living our lives seperately
And it's strange that things change
But not me wanting you so desperately

[Chorus:]
Oh why can't I ignore it?
I keep giving it in but I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change
But not me wanting you so desperately

You looked my way and said "you frustrate me"
Like you're thinking of lines and times
When you and I were you and me
We took our chance out on the street
Then I missed my chance
And chances are it won't be coming back to me

Why can't I ignore it?
I keep giving in, but I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it strange that things change
But not me wanting you-

So desperately
So desperately

[CHORUS]

I keep giving in but I should know better
I keep giving in but I should know better
So desperately
I want you so desperately

ahem

2005-11-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

**something strange has come over me.. got me going outta my mind.. **

i dont noe.. ive been thinking.. and i guess i cant always get wat i want.. but if i try somehow ill get wat i need.. isnt that wat the rolling stones said? theyre right..

maybe i cant or shouldnt get u cuz i guess friendship is wat we need.. but thats wat only a part of me thinks..the other part wants u soooo bad....... needs u soo bad.... but arent we humans supposed to resist temptations? or should we give in and bring happiness into our lives?? arghh!! im stuck! im in a dilemma.. ive pushed myself into an abyss.. help.... anyone... someone.. sigh...............

today......

2005-11-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

i went hari raya-ing with my friends today for the first time in my entire life... we all looked sooo pretty/handome.. hahaha... however the book never had the perfect ending which i had always wished for.. i never made it to issys house.. and it kills cuz its 5yrs.. and i was hoping this year would be the year... haiz.....

i really wanna go... :(

**I WANNA MEET HIS MOM!!!!!!and the fooodddd... I HEARD SHE ROCKS THE SOCKS OUTTA EVERYONEE!**

so yea... im back home........ wondering why everythings the way it is... why do people keep wanting more... why do people have feelings they dont wanna have... why do people who smile a lot ends up being the bruised ones..... haiz... those kindda questions keep hittin my mind, makin me so upset with life..... where's my positiveness in life? where did it all go? ...... i need it back cuz im in a very fragile state rite now......... haiz.......

i always go by life with bob marleys lines in my head but today i wonder...is everything reaallly gonna be alrite????.....................

to someone:**hey.. please dont get all upset.. im only going for a while... and im reallly really sorry if i bring in that much misery.. i dont mean to.. and if u want, i can end everything with u to stop makin u so upset...and sleeping isnt the only way to 'numb' urself... there are 'some' people who can make u smile and forget abt the worst..... theres ............... nvm....."

some and others

2005-11-18T08:56:00.000+08:00

some and others...

i dun get it..... to some people its wonderful to help others.. and to others helping is not enof.... to some knowing another is more that enof and to others, just knowing isnt...... to some people being different is all they want.. and to others, they dont wanna be the black sheep.... to some people, feelings are like diamonds to be precious and treasured, and to others, theyre just like stones that were meant to be thrown.... to some knowing the truth explains everything, to others, knowing the truth is just a lie.... to some, everything is forgiven... to others, nothing goes down without a fight....

the conclusion?.. all i seem to know is people who are "others" and not "some"...

Singing this song by booboo...... "i know a place"

When the whole world lets you down
And there's nowhere for you to turn
Cause all of your best friends let you down-own-own
And you tried to accumulate
But the world is full of hate
So all of your best thoughts, just adrift through space
I know a place where we can carry on
I know a place where we can carry on
We can carry on, we can carry on
We can carry on, we can carry on
And this people like you, ooh people like me
People need to be free yeah
Thereâ€™s a place in the sun where there is love for everyone
Where we can be yeah
I know a place where we can carry on
I know a place where we can carry on
We can carry on, we can carry on
We can carry on, we can carry on

Yeah when the whole world lets you down
And there's nowhere for you to turn
Cause all of your best friends have a let you d-down, down-own-own
And you tried to accumulate
But the world is full of hate
So all of your best thoughts, just adrift through space
I know a place where we can carry on
I know a place where we can carry on
We can carry on, we can carry on
We can carry on, we can carry on
We can carry on, we can carry on
We can carry on, we can carry on...

am i?

2005-11-16T02:59:00.000+08:00

no im not inlove!!

or am i?.. noo.. i cant be... or can i? im nottt...... i am... i dont wanna be... but am i? i shouldnt be.... or should i? nooo.. i cant be... i just cant..... am i????????????

kat

2005-11-12T01:17:00.000+08:00

its been such a rough day...in general, ive been emotionally disturbed.

the major one?.. well, ive felt so weird after my maths paper... i think its the thot of kat leaving sg that nite for good....
i dont understand.. i couldnt wait for her to go.. and now when shes gone, i want her back.....tears just keep running down my face... its so hard to let go.. why? and u havent even had ur weddin yet..wat would happen then???? i hate mohd for taking you away..... why... u dont have to go... uve always made a stand for ur right, wat happened here... why must u leave everyone and everything behind?

when i came back home from the airport, and walked towards my room...i saw ur room door.. with the lights switched off.. it was deserted...it was empty.. u were not there.. and u wont be any more.... i havent cried this heavily all my life... this is so painful.................when would my tears run out? why wont it? im so tired of crying so heavily that my everything hurts... i cant even breathe rite and my head aches..

im really sorry if i made ur life a living hell.. i am...from deep deep deep down... if only u could see the tears im cryin and feel the pain im going thro cuz of ur absence...

haiz.... u couldve at least hugged me..............

i think i need to sleep or else my heads gonna explode and my heart fractured. so good nite.... im praying for mamas,urs, bakury and abudi's safety...

youre missed already.

oh man

2005-11-05T01:24:00.000+08:00

oh man.. o's are just a breath away... 48hours left and counting...... i need to stay awake for every second.. so being so immune to caffeine from coffee and coke, i have to turn to disgusting red bull.....

cant stay long to write, need to study!! grrrr...

stressed and eye-bagged me.. cheers everyone..

good luck for your o's...!

eid mubarak

2005-11-02T21:54:00.000+08:00

woohooo ramadan's finallly over!!!!!!!! i can finally eat in broad daylight!! but im kindda missing fasting already.... and the worst parts is abt this ramadan is that i didnt get to go to geylangs bazaar and that i dunno when laylat al kadir was!!!! grr!!!... oh well..

eid mubarak everyone!!!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!!!!!!!

Maaf zahir Batin!!

Sorry everyone if i had done something bad to u, intimidate you or made you hate me for watever reasons ((im not referring to u ****..u dont deserve any sorries from me..not now, not during hari raya, not ever...)).........anyways, forgive me for watever wrong stuff ive done!! may you have a wonderful eid!....... love y'alll!!!

...

2005-11-01T18:37:00.000+08:00

ive just read zilly (fadzil) and fuddys blogs..and theres something in common in both of their blogs.....however the only difference is, zillys optimistic but fuddys all pessimism..

i mean i agree with zilly said :quote, that everything happens for a reason..and for good reasons, unquote. we wont really realise its a good thing until later in the future.. and thats kindda the prob with a lotta people, they dont realise a bad thing is just a moulding of something positive waiting to happen... eg 1: if we were given 110% freedom by our parents, dont u think by the time we reach 30, we'd probably be tattooed all over and struggling to pay the bills?.. i mean i personally question my freedom by my parents but come to think abt it, looking at those people who have all the freedom end up living a life with discontent in the future compared to those who were granted freedom once in a while... another eg is if our teachers never yelled at us, would we bother to bring our books the next day? would we even bother to come to school?.... and if u analyse it, the teachers are just trying to get u educated so u can carry all your knowledge with u to the future and get good jobs, and a good life..

on the other hand, zilly also said that, quote, zillys blog,things happen for the benefit of everyone, unquote. i have to disagree with that..its not always for the benefit of everyone... its actually more to the benefit of oneself, of yourself.... back to eg 1: ur parents limiting ur freedom is to the benefit only you... not everyone.. ure friedns have the benefit, come to think abt it, theyd be more pissed that u cant go out!!

fuad... i dont know wat the prob is ((and u should tell me btw! its not fair.. i tell u everything!!)),but watever it is, try looking on the brightside.... ure too negative...i realised at least 80% of ur enteries are all so negative... why dont u ever write when ure happy??..... and if u were to be dead in the yr 2001, who the hell would make me laugh by telling me to study when he himself isnt!!... one more thing, lighten up on the vulgarities.. cuz its just gonna provoke you..so now take a deep breath... and go study!! (hehe)

yey! 30 hrs to go......before eid/hari raya!!...

the simpsonnnsss

2005-10-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

omg!! the horror!!!! the simpsons is on from just now til 8pm!!!! the episodes are sooooooo wicked!!!!!!! cuz its a halloween special... heres the sad part... i cant watch it!!! i gotta study for my malay o's and the rest!! why must my malay be tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!! arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

speakin abt halloween, yesterday was the cutest thing.. all the kids living in this estate came knockin on doors saying "TRICK OR TREAT".. it was soooooooooooo funnnny... and cute..

watever it is, im still pissed!! i wanna watch the simpsons!!!!!!!!!!!!! lifes soooo unfair!!! ARGH!!! grRrr! etc.. haha...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

uh O's...

2005-10-29T17:11:00.000+08:00

jika tidak dipecah ruyung, di mana boleh mendapat sagunya... rite?

the thing is....i really wanna do extremely well for my o's but everyones all up in my cool aid! i mean like everyones got somethin to say to me abt my o's and its never something encouraging...

eg:

1) mona keeps sayin that ite is too good for me

2) kat says im wastin money on takin my o's

3) my mum thinks im ruining my life

4) my tutor's crazily worried for me

5) my mums friend doesnt have any confidence that i can do well whatsoever

and the list goes on...

i know many of u would be like.."prove them wrong!" but its different for me.. i mean like i feel so pinned down to the ground.. i succeed with motivation, not by criticisms and insults............... sigh.... and cuz of all that, im begining to think theyre right...so like the will to do well is slowly disappearing..........

at this very moment, i just feel like fast forwarding life to the 23/11/05, the day i leave singapore......i wanna pack my bags and get outta here..

shockedd

2005-10-27T16:49:00.000+08:00

im soooo stunned by broadricks performance-academic that is-... omg... its just.... horrendous and incompetent and terribly dreadful...im soo disappointed.. it saddens me.. esp when i hear the people who i know (and love) are the ones having to repeat..!! i mean omg!!!!! how could u..!! *****,****, ***..!! wat went wrong! haiz.. no point gettin all mad, despite the fact that my brds skools rep is sooo ruined...30+ repeats!?!?? haiiiz...

anyways, if ure someone whos repeating, dont feel discouraged.. lifes all about oppurtunities and its never too late..so yea, prove em wrong.... ok?? dont make the same mistake twice....

so yea, thats abt it... went to skool today for cikgu rose but she was soo busy so i gotta meet her tomorrow.... im so tired.. oh shit!, i mean uh oh! i havent prayed my zohor!!!!!!! TOODLES!!!!

wooohoooo!

2005-10-26T15:23:00.000+08:00

oh mannn... im soooooooooo exhausted....... alto i had about 13hrs of sleep last nite..im such a pig! hahaha

finallly me and far buka together! we did it at El-Sheikh, down on Arab Street.. the ppl workin there are really nice...a big shout out to y'all! wooo!!!! omg, we had a blasssstttt!!!!!!!! we met a lotta ppl there.. haha....that was one of my funnest days in history to date!!! far!! we have to do this more often!!!! me and u out is equivalent to a whole crib of party animals (over-exaggeration) but wat the hell! it was a superb nite!!! came home at ard 11... and then studied for an hr.. slept at 2 out of exhaustion.... i still feel sooo tired rite now but i dun really mind... i loved every minute of last nite......the rest is all secret! winkidy winkies far! hahaha

so now, i gotta get back to studying.. man, im such a slacker.... someone slap the crap outta me!!!..

btw, ive been feelin reallllly arabic lately..hahha.. watever that means... so if i ter-say arabic words ard ya, get used to it!! khalas!
assallamu alaikum!...

last days of sec skool

2005-10-14T22:21:00.000+08:00

days fly by...... my sec skool life is comin to an end!! i dun want it to..!!.... broadricks my home.... my family...why is it everytime i fall inlove with something, it has to be taken away from me?????
well, nevertheless, i shall leave brd with my head held high... YES! IM A BROADRICIAN!! haha..

ill put out the pics of whom id miss the most, apart from the teachers, tomorrow.... k? sigh..... altho its my last day today,i shall come back verryyyyyy often... haha.. to grads of 2005.... thanks for all the memories, both bitter and sweet ones.... hope all ur dreams and wishes would be fulfilled.. ((wishes do deserve to come true esp when it has to do with ppl u love.... ))............... anyways, take care all.. all the best for in ur future! love ya!!

ALWAYS apart of my heart.....

2005-10-14T13:06:00.000+08:00

Forever and Always A Part Of My Heart...
((in random order))

Mr Yew...

Mr Ong... haha he calls me catwoman/cockroach!!

Cikgu Rohani

Ms Fud

Ms Mastura

Mr Fong, aka Ah Fong

Mr Lee.. aka superman

Ms boey.. aka Ms Chemistry

Cikgu Rose!

My Mdm Lim...

My mummy, Mdm Swee

the lil pieces of memories im taking along with me........ thanks everyone, esp the teachers and the friends... love y'all......

Every memory of lookin' out the back door,
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.
Every memory of walkin' out the front door,
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye good-bye.

these are the people i loveeee:

my 5n1

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2005-10-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

is

2005-10-08T13:05:00.000+08:00

i hate him.. i hate him.. i hate him...
i wish he never loved me and i wish i never loved him..
i hate him.. i hate him.. i hate him!!

im gonna tell myself that every single day.... every single sec.... till i get over you..

im killin myself for u but u dont seem to care... ure not worth anything... i hate myself for loving you for 3 yrs.. stupid me..............

time to close the book.............
i hate you....

i hope ure satisfied with ur life...

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2005-10-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

hey...

today was sooo cool..... i found out that mr "Gazali" and i are like loooonnngggg loooooooooosttttt bro and sis mann!!
we're both addicted to chocolate and ...COKE!!! its sooo cool!.. he and i sneak in coke the same way!..we ask our maids to go buy coke despite our parents disapproval!!! haha.. i thot i was the only one,maaan!!.. and like the first thing we do when buka-ing puasa is... drink coke!!! haha.. i guess its the same addiction as cigs man.. haha.... aint that just swell?!! haha woooooohooooooo!!!

haha.. this is hilarious... i ter-entered a site for magic.. hahah.. its like spells, voodoos, wanga dolls... theres a spell about returnin a lost love.. haha.. anyone interested??..... a spell on sweeeet revenge... and this i want... a speelllll for... *drumroll* money!!! haha... but cannot do it now mann.. bulan puasa.. hahah.. enof laughter.. hahaha...

omg... i just ate sneakers... and my teeth are killin me.. its like that stupid ad for Sensodyne, where the man eats ice-cream but it feels like he's eating a cactus.. *corny*.. haha.. so yea.. same thing man!!.. i noe this mite seem a lil wacko, but whenever i go on a PUREEEE chocolate diet, i lose weight, tremendously..... but in return, my teeth start aching!!.. therefore i shld try another solution... bulimia.. haha... i need the weight loss!! haha im a large balloon!!

------> fahimah... sorry for the way i acted towards u... im not really ready yet... i hope u understand.. sorry...

***what do u call that awful thing where u need someone u cant have? oh yea.. love... **

poem... on broken promises:

Promises
Why do we make promises of forever?
Some are kept for awhile - others never.

When I made you promises-
I meant them
And even tho I broke them
I would make them all again.

There is one promise that I can keep this time
I promise to cherish the days when you were mine
Even though I've gone away
I will love you until my dying day.

This is the one and only promise to be true
All the others I have broken right in two.
I will always love you - of that I'm sure.
The love we had was always sweet and pure.

Neither of us could really change
I tried so hard - my life to rearrange
But deep inside I had another life
I could not throw away - no matter what the strife.

Now here I am, making more promises to you.
Promises of remembering our time together and loving you.
Promises that this time I can keep
Because my love for you is still so very deep.

You got tired of all the promises I made
I promised you forever but I never stayed.
I think of all the times we got lost in our blue sea
I wonder if you ever think of me.

Yes, I made so many promises that never did come true
But sweetheart, no matter what else I ever do
You are my Forever Love and this is my last promise to you
Until the end of time... I'll be in love with you!

****why do i even bother..............you dont care,do u?........****

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2005-10-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

fasted today, wasnt as hard as i thot it was......

skool was fine....... except for the fact that my crush noes im crushing over him... how super utterly embarrassin!!!!!

anyways, on the way home, i took a taxi..mann.. the driver was drinkin and driving!!! he was like gulping in a huge glass bottle of calsberg.. freaky.. so yea, if u see this cab no. SHB7776T, stay clearrr!! haha... am i gonna get sued for writin a liscence plate no. on my blog? *ponders*

other than that, nothing interesting happened.. was hopin my day would be twice as interestin as it was after talkin to fuddy but doubt that would happen now.. haha... sorry! sincere apologies! haha

p.s ziiillllyyy.... im piggin out!! :P

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2005-10-04T20:16:00.000+08:00

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so yea.. i kindda found out im 'annoying'....watever

anyways, normal day in skoool... omg!!! i forgot to do my karangan!! gtg!! gonna leave u with a song....

i loveee this song.. and iskhandar.. if u can play this song...... omg.. ill literally HAIL to you.. this song really proves ur ability and talent in singing....

aerosmith.. (aerosmith is THE band..)
Dream on

everytime that i look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin' clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isn't that the way
Everybody's got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know it's everybody's sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books' written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know it's true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away
(x2)

Dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on...

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
Sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

2005-10-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

my EYE... (i think its the left one..*bimboatic me*) .. is swollen again!!!! WTF!!!!!!! its all red and stuff and ive got this horrible headache as well.. Godddd!! ... my eyes feel like poppin outta their sockets..

IS THERE A DOC IN THE HOUSE!?!?
on second thot, i hate docs.. so yea....haha..

k! gtg 7 11.. anyone wants anything from there?? holllla!!

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2005-10-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

so i just ended tuition with taran... funnie girl.. learnt a lil but thats better than nothing.. she wasnt wat i expected her to be-> my sisters friend.. haha...

anyways, today was a weirdly fun day in skool.. once again, me and far enjoyed ourselves in class despite there was the two of us there only... man.. i can hang out with her only for forever and would never get bored... haha.. love u girl!

ive been hacing a huggee appetite lately..killing me cuz my clothes are gettin tighter!! hahaha... so yea... i gotta go study.. hahahahahaha... gets me all the time..hahaha...

well..... shout out to:

fuad-> miss ya!.. and go top up ur card... wanna msg ya! haha

jasmi-> miss u too!! how r u?

zilly-> hows stuff going??

. aka feez-> haha.. its u! ahhahaha how was ur eng paper

bryo-> *mummy dearest* hahaha... hii!!

elias-> copy cat!!!!!!

sak-> miss u like hell..... come to skool!!!

to the rest!!! hi and byeee!!

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2005-10-02T11:00:00.000+08:00

hii!...

yesterday ((01.10.2005))was another typical day for fuad.. i was 'just' his birthday.. haha.. hey, sorry i had to cut the converation short..haha.. hope ya more another ordinary days in the future! haha

yesterday, me and far went to orchard.. omg!! we had a BLAST!!!!!! it was the both of us only and we didnt expect to have much fun but we did!!! we made new friends from club marc: tuti,shaz and terri...very nice girls...btw, hi!!!!... haha..

i tried on this red-indians vest.. it was blue and black!! it wass sooo pretty!! im publish a pic later.. it was sooo cooooll....
i brought big glasses..... AND A RASTA HEAD-BAND!! its sooooo cuteeee ((jealousy,fuad, jealousy!! haha))
me and far tried on prom dresses.. from the shortest to the longest..... the nicest to the weirdest..we tried on a dress which made us look like pregnant mothers.. it was sooo fuunnny... i kept complainin abt my biiiiiggggg buttt.. hahahaha.....

today shall be study day for me.... i gotta start someday, rite? haha.. well... sarah out... books in! haha....

p.s: love still sucks.. haha...

Good luck N-people!! show cambridge whos got game!!!!! hahaha

((im abusing the word tool bar thingy!!))

song of the week...:
madonna....

where do we go from here?
this isnt where we intended to be
we had it all, you believed in me
i believed in you

certainties disappear
what do we do for our dream to survive?
how do we keep all our passions alive,
as we used to do?

deep in my heart im concealing
things that im longing to say
scared to confess what im feeling
frightened you'll slip away

you must love me
you must love me

why are you at my side?
how can i be any use to you now?
give me a chance and ill let you see
how nothing has changed

deep in my heart im concealing
things that im longing to say
scared to confess what im feeling
frightened youll slip away

you must love me
you must love me

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2005-09-30T17:59:00.000+08:00

ooook so hi!!

before i say anything... just wanna wish all the n-level students all the best... kick asssss man!! haha prove the teachers theyre wrong and that you can do it!!

anywayssss.... my mum was tellin my sisters and i about how we were when we were young.... i know these stuff are embarrassing and should never be told but hey! you all are family! hahaha...

so my mum was saying... i was verrrrrryyyyy hyper.. i hardly got sick,unlike my elder sis.. however i alwayyssssssss injured myself... till now actually.. haha... there was once, i came to my mum tellin her my arm hurt.. it turned out to be a dislocation.. and then not long later, my coller bone was the next victim..my mum said i never really cried when the doc's were trynna fix my arm cuz i was probably used to it reached to the stage to which if i dislocate one more time, thats it for my hand.... tragic, huh? oh rite... i recall after hearing the doc say that, i began spraining my ankles.. it was more safer!!..

there was once i fell and my chin tore open and began bleeding like hell.. haha.. yes, im such a klutz.. haha

there was once i swallowed a 50cent coin too! haha.. i came to my mum gasping.. and she thot i was playing until she saw my blue lips... she opened my mouth and behind my tonsils was the coin... my mum freaked as my head started to be blue.. haha.. so yea.. she stuffed her finger into my throat and took it out.. i began throwin up blood cuz she scratched my throat area as well...

hmm.. wat else... oh yeah.. i loveeed to play with my moms make up.. i still do! haha.. anyways, there was once my mum bought dior lipstick and before she could show it off, i climbed up the table and started drawin on the walls and everything, thats after i ran outta space to draw ony my face....... i played with the dads gel as well to the extent that it was all over the floor and my fingers were practically stuck together!! haha..

i only became crazy after being 2 yrs old.. when i was 2 and less, if u wee to put me in a place, u can come back an hr later and id be still there or fallen asleep on the same place.. haha..

i think thats abt it....or theres more but im sufferin from short-term-memory.. hahaha... hey hey hey!! the simpsons on!!!!!! byeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

btw...to:
"." ---->WHO ARE YOU? tell tell tell!

Jas----> CALL ME ASAP!

Fuad---> GET OFF WORK TOMORROW! call in sick or i shall call ur boss and make sure u get fired tomorrow!!!! haha

zilly ----> wow.. ur results were simply amazing! keep it up!

azmi----> do ur english!! and good luck for ur n's

feeza---> good luck for ur n's too!

and to whoevers out there...

booo!!!

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2005-09-27T21:57:00.000+08:00

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there are many hypocritical people living in singapore let alone in the east... *only fuad and far would noe the story behind this...*

anyways...... ive been hearin from thousands of teachers who wont stop admiring iskhandar bin abdul talib's prelims performance... it was mostly As and Bs!!... i mean seriously.. how does he do it all? how does he manage being perfect at everything... why cant i be like him???? hes got future-rockstar talents, a smarty pants, charm, hes creative, hes like the whole package, noe wat i mean?? but like topping everything he does.... mannn.. is he human?? im sooo jealous of him.. extremely way-beyond-mars jealous...!!! ive never felt tihs way before.. im so jealous to the extent that the deelin of jealously exploded in me shattering just its lil pieces of jealousy all over me...... its like the green-eyed monster being coloned over and over again... wtf!!!!

so yea.. why cant i be like him??????????????????????

so its now like..*i wanna die* x 2 ..... i wonder how long it would take for u guys to forget me once i die... erm... days? hrs? min? secs?....... i wonder if u guys would even notice im dead.. haha.... k...

****DYING ROCKS!!!****

p/s.. me and radu are friends!!!! hhahaha...

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2005-09-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

haiz... i feel so ... i dont noe... like somethin just aint right... i feel so.... hollow.. like a dark well without its water...... wats missing? wats not there? everything seems fine now.. but wat is it that im not full heartedly unsatisfied with? i dont noe... im hoping someone out there would....

fuad....ur emptiness.. is it still there? or is it gone with the winds? if it is gone, help me get through this......

blow me far away....... wats the point of living a life im just faking? the fake smiles.. the fake laughs.. the fake strength.. the fake 'im fine'.. the fake words of 'somethings in my eye'... the fake happiness... the fake calmness...... the fake hatred.... the fake 'distractions'... the fake friendships....

no one wouldve guessed my life now is a lie...

song of the day:

There's something about the way you looked at me
Think for a moment,
That maybe we were meant to be
Living life seperately
Ain't it strange how things change
And now they wanted, you so desperately

Oh, I cannot ignore it
I could give it in, but I should know better
There's something about the way you looked at me
Ain't it strange how things change
And now they wanted, you so desperately

Yeah you looked and
You said you frustrate me
Like thinking of lines,
In times when you and I were you and me
Took a chance out on the street
May have missed my chance
And chances are you won't be coming back for me

Why can't I ignore it
I could have given in, but I should know better
Cause there's something about the way you looked at me
Ain't it strange how things change
But now they're wanting you so desperately
So desperately

Why can't I ignore it
I could have given in, but I should know better
Cause there's something about the way you looked at me
Ain't it strange that things change
But now they're wanting you so desperately
So desperately

I keep giving in, when I should know better
I keep giving in, when I should know better
So desperately
I want so desperately

bye.. sigh... another day.. another life... another me.........

rastaliciousnessifyinglycated

2005-09-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

Time always kills the pain
thats something i learnt
love is just a crazy game
that leaves you crushed and burnt

late night cries
and all the fake smiles
forever dripping tears
are the work of the devil

like a sun shone
but like the rain
u were gone
so simple and fast
i thought we would last

but the best is to stay this way
no matter if it kills me inside
you still never fail to brighten my day
im happy as long as ure alrite.....

ure now with ur dream girl
ure all happy and still shine
but i still ponder abt the dyas left
when i can call u mine..

wtf am i thinking... hahaha................ good nite!!!!!!! btw..... im addicted to coke so yea...when u wanna see me, make sure uve got coke in ur hands... hahaha... bye!! crazy crazy me

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2005-09-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

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all i keep saying/singing is...

You can't always get what you want
You can't always get what you want
You can't always get what you want
But if you try sometimes you just might find
You get what you need

*you cant always get wat u want by the rockin The Rolling Stones*

sigh.

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2005-09-21T22:07:00.000+08:00

YEAH BABY!!!!!

J.D FORTUNE WON ROCKSTAR INXS!!! HES THE NEXT NEW LEAD SINGER.... HOTTTTTTTTTTTT........ AND WOOOHOOOO, ALTHO I WANTED MIG TO WIN BUT I LOVE JD TOO... HATE MARTY... HAHA.. GO JD!!!! YYEEEEEEEEEEE HHHHAAAA!!!!!

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2005-09-21T20:10:00.000+08:00

so yeah.... days fly by so fast..... i think.. ahahaa

omg.. today i was really fuckedddd up for like 5hrs+.. azmi and sharin were like soooooo niceeee... omg..thanks guys.. ahaha.. i met new ppl today, faris and izuan? is that how u spell their names? ...

i only began smiling at 5+pm.. after i drank a whole cup of barley (ewww) really quickly... i won the race on who could finish their 1/2 cups of barley after drinkin a whole cup.. thus 1 and 1/2 cups of barley (eww) is in my tummy.. underwater world man!! i think ill be peeing for the rest of the day....haha...

life still sucks like crap but im trynna open my eyes to positiveness... kindda actually.. i miss laughing and smiling like how i used too.. i was listenin to this song and it reminded me of.. well... b**.............. only a few parts actually.. the bold ones.. i dunno why but it doesSsS!!! haiz.. depressing again.. grr...

*****I AINT SEEN THE SUN SHINING IN THREE DAMN DAYS!!!*****Since you've been gone my world's been dark and grey*****You reminded me of brighter days*****Can't seem to get you off my mind,I can't understand why we're living life this way*****

here it is anyways...

picture by kid rock and sheryl crow:

(kid rock)
Living my life in a slow hell
Different girl every night at the hotel
I ain't seen the sun shining in three damn days
Been fueling up on cocaine and whiskey
Wish I had a good girl to miss me
Oh I wonder if I'll ever change my ways

(Hook)2x
I put your picture away
Sat down and cried today
I can't look at you
While I'm lying next to her
I put your picture away
Sat down and cried today
I can't look at you while I'm lying next to her

[sheryl crow]
I called you last night in the hotel
Everyone knows but they won't tell
But their half-hearted smiles tell me something just ain't right
I've been waiting on you for a long time
Filling up on heartaches and cheap wine
I ain't heard from you in three damn nights

(Hook)2x
I put your picture away
I wonder where you've been
I can't look at you while I'm lying next to him
I put your picture away
I wonder where you've been
I can't look at you while I'm lying next to him

I saw you yesterday with an old friend

(Kid Rock)
It was the same old same how have you been

(Both)
Since you've been gone my world's been dark and grey
(Kid Rock)
You reminded me of brighter days

(Sheryl)
I hoped you were coming home to stay
I was headed to church

(Kid Rock)
I was off to drink you away

(Both)
I thought about you for a long time
Can't seem to get you off my mind
I can't understand why we're living life this way

I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you to come back home
I found your picture today
I swear I'll change my ways
I just called to say I want you
To come back home
I just called to say I love you
Come back home

lalalalalalalalalalalaladepressed-melalalalalalalalalalalalalalaalalala bye

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2005-09-18T09:50:00.000+08:00

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forgot to write this in....

i felt so strong when b** came in... so strong.. i felt like i stood up.. after all the falls i had.... and then ppl just take that away from me.. making me so weak.......... making me fall again.... i liked b** but i guess its all over noow.... lifes a misery.... haiz.. miss u....

once again..... why doesnt anyone want me to be happy

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2005-09-18T09:42:00.000+08:00

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my head is spinning.. my heart is all bruised and sore.. everything has crashed and burned...im in an abyss.. im in misery.... someone out there.. help me...

haiz... why doesnt anyone want me to be happy? everytime i find happiness, its only temporary.... i mean my last entry, i was happy.. i needed that happiness, and i got it from someone..... I felt strong again when that person came into my life.. and thats wat i needed and wanted.... But then my past interfered and my future blew up in my face....... people like joe and is keep ruining all the possibilities of me being happy.. wat do u 2 want from me.. i let u be happy.. why cant u do the same to me?

is, i wanted u to be happy,thats why i walked away... cuz ud be happier with 'her' and ur friends, rather than just me...

joe, i wanted u to be happy, thats why i still remained to be ur friend...but i dun understand u.... why cant u ever be just happy for me? ure always showing such an attitude and thats why i lost someone important..

to everyone out there whos stepping all over me... just stop it..get lost...

my prelims are going down the drain...haiz... im gonna disappoint everyone........haiz........

haiz..ppl ruin my happiness... i ruined it too cuz i was so angry...and upset.. and hurt.. and devastated

im so sorrrry b**..i didnt mean to say wat i said... haiz...

i just wanna die now..

god rest my soul.....
16 June 1988 to 18 September 2005
((thats gonna be written on my tombstone))

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2005-09-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

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btw, a lil shout out to those who helped me through it all..
such as...:

-jas and his advises and of course his love

-fuddy and his wiseness and of course his love as well..

((thanks for lettin me noe that im loved (to my both bros).. its cuz of ppl like u who manage to make me smile til my lips and cheeks begin aching))

pzyko and his ure-not-alone-but-i-shall-be-there-for-ya-ness..

-my best friends,lis sak far, for helping me get out of this misery as well..

hmm.. anyone else i 'forgotten'? holla back and ill make a special thanks to u..

I LOVE U ALL....i still hate life, but i love the ppl who are in my life.. muackz to all!

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2005-09-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

im watching figure it out.. haha...
anyways, tomorrows mooncake festival in broadrick.. feel free to come.. 6.30pm to 9pm.. i wont be there though.. dun wanna ruin it for joe.. so yea.....

anyways, lifes been taking its toll on everyone lately... i just found out that only one in a million smiles are actually from their hearts.. others smile to hide their sorrows.. i used to smile from my heart..all the time... now its just fake smiles to not show my misery...

its not abt 'him' anymore.. mdm swee (my mummy) helped me thro it.. she made me realise that ppl who decide to hate me isnt worth my friendship......

however one thing makes me wonder,altho i threw that problem away... just pondering..why is it that u,h****, are the one hating me, and gettin everyone to do the same, when ure the one who caused everything......... arent i supposed to be the one hating u?

nevertheless, ive kindda got some latest news thingy, and i shall message my bro.. fuddy abt it......btw hi!!.. haha........... well, people come and go.. apparently, friends do... so i aint gonna be trippin over this.. im a strong gal..i mean yea i decided to back out of the "war" cuz i happened to respect ppl and willin to sacrifice...but i shant worry abt whos gonna be a true friend and who isnt anymore.. its very obvious.. ppl like fuddy,jas, lis, sak , far and the rest of u guys noe hu u r... u ppl are the world to me and i noe ill never lose u guys....

i noe its hard to understand wat im writin but oh well.. im just weird i guess.. and not thinkin straight.. well.. gtg... cya!.. take care y'all.. if i can make it thro this nightmare, i have faith in everyone else to be able to get through anything...!......

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2005-09-15T14:36:00.000+08:00

haiz.. i cried in skool today after reading a blog and an email... haiz.. i wannna diee.. i doo........ i dun care abt life.. its just smth stupid!!!!

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2005-09-14T16:01:00.000+08:00

im in skool rite now........ im so pissed off that HE didnt email me back.. i died while writin the damn eamil.. at least reply.... arghh!!!!! i need a guy... i want... ;)!!!!! hahaahahahah

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2005-09-11T17:35:00.000+08:00

haiz... this sucks... my prelims start tomorrow, and i cant stop thinkin and 'drawin' stuff abt... u noe who..... god this is killin me... i went online for one reason only.. to see if he replied my email... he didnt.. i dunno if he read it... all i noe is that, when i came online, my heart began pumping like never before... haiz... i cant have these feelings... i mean if i do.. ill never be able to let go of him.. rite? haiz...... gotta tell myself we were never meant to be.......... love is just a game.. a game of misery.... a game of happiness.. it all depands on ur luck.......... obviously, i ended up crashing and burning on this one..........

i was listenin to songs the whole nite last nite... couldnt sleep.. haiz.... i came across songs.. with these lyrics.. lyrics that just made me cry moreeee...:

burning my dreams -> from everything burns (ben moody and anastasia)

... We thought our love could overcome the circumstances
....So for every little thing you hold on to, you've got to let something else go.. --> shoulda woulda coulda (beverly knight)

ESPECIALLY THIS ONE:
david bedingfield -> if ure not the one

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife? (actually hubby)

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘ Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

lastly, Backstreet boys with.. lose it all...:

Oh no
Take what you need
'cause I can't hold my breath
Say what you feel 'cause
I got nothing left, oh
I made a promise to myself last night
I'm gonna keep it if it's wrong or right

And if I lose it all
There'll be nothing left to lose and
I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there breathing
It's so wonderful, it's a chance I take
even if I break it
I lose it all, if I lose it all
Wouldn't matter anyway

Don't change a thing, perfect as you are
Time has a way, time is all I've got
If my heart should shatter watching you
That'd be one less thing I'd have to prove
And if I lose it allThere'll be nothing left to lose and
I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there breathing

It's so wonderful,
it's a chance I take even if I break it
I lose it all, if I lose it all
Will be waiting when I fall into your open arms
I believe you'll find me there
You'll find me there

And if I lose it all
There'll be nothing left to lose and
I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there breathing
It's so wonderful, it's a chance I take even if I break it
I lose it all, if I lose it all
And if I lose it all
There'll be nothing left to lose and
I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there breathing
It's so wonderful, it's a chance I take even if I break it
I lose it all, if I lose it allWouldn't matter anyway

yes, ive turned all lovey dovey sappy wappy.. but wat else is a love-depressed gal supposed to do?

btw, good luck everyone in ur prelims tomorrow... kick ass man..! and to all the peeps out there remembering all lost on 9/11... stop listenin to sappy songs, itll just make u cry more....btw, it also goes out to all heartbrokee's......

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2005-09-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

today, im gonna do the most stupidest thing in the world.. i dunno if ill ever forgive myself for it..... but i guess i have to do it... i have to lie... i dun have a choice.......... i hope *u* understand.... i dun wanna do it.. but i have to.... haiz.. i hate myself now...!!!!!! please dont hate me...... and please find it in u to forgive some day....

**singing novemeber rain every single moment.........**

pay special attention to higlighted thingys

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you (u noe who u r)
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my
own Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

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2005-09-09T21:01:00.000+08:00

the lyrics on my blog says it all.............

im going through hell now cuz someone, whom i thot was a friend of mine, decided to ruin my everything......... i hope u ppl are happy now...

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2005-09-08T10:40:00.000+08:00

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i hate studying..... fuck it too

and lastly.. i hate smilin.. its just a freakin mask to hide everything thats happenin inside.....fuck smiling.. plus.. it just tires u out anyways......

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2005-09-08T10:35:00.000+08:00

i hate life... fuck it...

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2005-09-08T10:28:00.000+08:00

how many times must i say this..

i hate love...screw love! ARGHH!!

why must loving someone be so freaking hard?? why is it everytime you must push me away?? everytime everything seems so freakin perfect, u must come up with stuff tellin me its not gonna work... u made me fall for u... ure makin it hard...u asked me to wait... look at me.. im waiting.....ure givin up.. wat am i to do now?? u keep welling up in self-pity and keep having no confidence in us.. it doesnt work that way..it doesnt.. why cant u just make everything nice and smooth....u can.. but u dun want to... u wanna love me, but yet u dun want to.... might as well end it.......... rite?

*ignore wat im saying (esp *u* ..) im just really upset*

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2005-09-03T11:03:00.000+08:00

yesterday, sept 2nd, was faridahs birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLFREN! in skool.. the guys were allllll over her!!!!!!! unfair but i had my share too!! haha *bob*! hahaha

anyways,we decided to go to my place, and spontaneously decided to secretly bake a cake for her.. so mona and lisa went to get the stuff by cab, while me sak and far took a bus to my place.. mona and lis came up with a cute out-of-the-world story to why they reached my place half an hr later than we did.. haha... it was so funny.. they said the cab driver took them all the way to pasir ris.. hahhah.... while they were gone tho, i introduced my 2 goldfish and my ugly looking weird tortise thingy which i love so deary.. i swear its so weird.. ive never seen an animal like him before!!

when the 2 'lost' girls finally came home, they began mixing and stuff.. then mona came running to me beggin me for help cuz they didnt noe wat they were doing.. so yea.. i helped.. haha.. lisa came in to help too.. she switched on the cake mixer and wwhhaam!! it splashed all over her! it was hilarious!!!! hahahaha....

the cake was all baked up.. and i decided to melt chocolate from my hugggeeeeeee bar of chocolate.. and topped the cake.. my mum was out actually, but then came back home.. and she helped make the cake look better by adding a 'F' on it with caster sugar.. yes it looked weird, but it was superrr cute.. haha.. ill show it to ya another time when ive got more time.. thanks mum anyways!..

so yea...we brought the cake to my room.. and sang our butts out for her.. haha.. we love ya girl..... hope u had a great day yesterday!! haha...

anyways, a lil shout out to my brothers.. miss ya guys like hell altho ive seen u just a few days ago! love y'all to bits! muacks!

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2005-09-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

omg ty got out of rockstar inxs?!?! omgggggg.. thats sooooo not rightttt!!! argghh!!! how can they do thattt.. omg... hes like the sweetest thing and yet sooo talented!! and hes black too!!! my dream man....... haha... back to sad mood.. haiiz... hes sheddin a tear.. and jd just kissed him... awww... omg i feel like huggin him.. hes startin to cry.. im startin to cry.... my poor baby ty...........haiz...

anyways, i was lil bummed today..... i mean theres a lil hole in my heart which burns every time i think of someone with someone else... i dunno wat to think.. i dunno who's right for u.. i mean i know whos perfect for u and its not me, but i want it to be me.. but its not.. haiz.. ill just end here.......... good nite...

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2005-09-01T13:31:00.000+08:00

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i woke up at 12+... such a pig.. haha... i had an amazingggg dream.... and then when i went online to check my email.. mann... the dream just burnt up into ashessss......... ahhh... i hate love.......... screw love... loves a piece of junk which brings temporary happiness... and then hurts u like hell........... I HATE LOVE!!!!!

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2005-08-31T23:15:00.000+08:00

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ill write abt teachers day tomorrow.. when im re-engergized. good nite.

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2005-08-31T17:28:00.000+08:00

i just watched rockstar inxs.... omg im super in love with the showww... haha.. cant get enof of it!! i cant get enof of mig... and ty... and practically all of em... why does mig have to be married.. why are alllll hot guys taken!?!!! GrRrRrr!!!!!!!!!! i dun want any of them to leave tomorrrrow.. i love all of em.. even jd.. haha.. he reminds me of luqman sometimes.. the attitude to get wat he wants....to be the best.. in a way its good.. hahah..AaaAAhH theyre all HOTTTTTT...!! ill put up more pics next time! haha

ThE HoT miG!! haha..HeS MINE, ladies!!

MiG oNCe AgAin! weEEe!!!

ThiS is JD! humAn BeiNg!

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2005-08-29T21:09:00.000+08:00

this is wat i wrote after writing paper1 of english today:

omg! i cant think at all!! my whole head seems to be jammed!! i dunno wats happening to me! ive been so distracted and out of the zone! i do expect to get atrocious results for this majorly screwed up compo...i mean neglect????? all i could think of was someone who was treated like cinderella! HOW BORING!! and i realised its unrelevance to the title..... but hadnt had the time to rewrite a whole new compo! everyone seems to be filled with thots and ideas..im like a potato.. a mashed potato to be exact!! i hate every other topic,except for one which i love.. its about maids.. omg my favourite,however i was tooooo lazy to think!!!!! omg did i just say that?? wats happenin to me!! hellpp!!!!!!!!!!!

btw here were the topics:
1) what we learnt in school today will always be of use in later life. do you agree?
2) write abt an occasion when you gave someone advice tat was badly-timed.
3) foreign domestic maids are an essential part to a singaporean household. what are your views (***)
4) neglect ((this is wat i chose... big mistake!!))
5) describe your shopping experiences during a festive occasion.

wtf! boring topics maan...

paper 2:
even worse... i mean abt artificies or smt shit like that! totally pissed me off.. man.. couldnt they come up with somethin more exciting? like chocolate or smth? GRRRRRRR!!! and the questions.. was a killa......!!! however, when i asked luqman how the paper was.. his reply was, quote " to me, it was surprisingly easy" end of quote. wat the helll!!!!!! hope he failssss man!! hahaha jk!!.. ahaha... grrr!!!!!!! i feel like biting everyone!!!!!!!!

***virtual BBBIIIITTTTTEEEEEEEEEE*** best i could do! haha..

btw ppl.. i wanna noe who reads my blog.. so tagg me with ur name!! chaooo!! beware of my bitilicious teeeethh!!! grr!

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2005-08-28T11:57:00.000+08:00

i wanna diee!!! i lost smth im NEVER supposed to lose!!!!! shitt... im gonna get into deep crap!! arghh!..... search party needed at my place!! everyone, get ur toosh down here and help me look for it!! omg i need to find it.. and if i dont, well.. all i can say is, prepare a coffin for me, cuz ill be needing it! omg! how can i lose it! argh! i feeeeel like cryin, then dying.... AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my bross

2005-08-27T10:38:00.000+08:00

another entry on my 2 favouriteeee bros in the universseee.. btw..this weird smile is for ya!! haha...........

i missssss u guysss maaann... hate not going online..... u both were soo full of life.. thats why im so incredibly dullll nowadays! ffuuaaaddddddd..... jaaaaaasssssssmmmmiiiii......... unborify me!! or u cld simply LEARN TO SWITCH ON UR HP (jas), OR TELL U PARENTS TO GO AWAY SO U COULD USE THE PHONE (fuad)..... hahaha...
soyea.... i realllllllllly lovvveeee ya pppl mannn.... cant wait to see ya all on wednesday.. and FINALLY give fuddy his surprise prezzie... jas.. u hang in there buddy.. hehe... i doubt we'd talk tho cuz u both are always soo caught up with ur other buddies and i totally understand..so yea, if u guys dont talkkkk to me, i totallllly understandd... gettin used to it actually.. hahaha.. except jas..u talked to me the last time.. U MADE ME ESCORT U TO THE GATE... hahah... see u both there... tons of loveeeee! muackz!!!

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2005-08-26T17:03:00.000+08:00

I WANNA GO! I WANNA GO FOR THE ANNIVERSARY DINNER! I WANNA GOO!!!!!! ARRGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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2005-08-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

hii... guess wat! ive got a bob marley shirt!!! same print as my blog pic!!!!! woo hoo! thanks kat!!! yippeee!! my new fav clothie in my cupboardie! hahahahah... weeeee!.. cant wait to go out! someone ask me out so i can wear the shirt!!!!!!! hahaha

p/s: i hope fuads jealous.. hahah!!! ;)!

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2005-08-24T20:47:00.000+08:00

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this is goes out to fadzil ((and to everyone else who wants to move on but cant seem to, this is ur green light))... hey, leave everything behind... take ur final step forward........... dun be afraid.. and ANTI SOCIALISM IS NOT THE ANSWER!! hehehe

and yes, i listen to backstreet boys.. hahahahah!

Artist: Backstreet Boys
Album: Never Gone
Title: Song For The Unloved

Hey..

This one is for the mothers…
Who've lost a child
This one is for the gipsys
Who left their hearts behind
This is for the strangers
Sleeping in my heart
Take what they want
And leave while it's still dark

[Bridge]
No one is glamourous
Lonely, all by themselves

[Chorus]
This is a song for the unloved
This is a music for one last cry
This is a prayer that tomorrow will help me leave the past behind
It's a song for the unloved (the unloved)

This one's for the bridesmaid
Never the bride
This one's for the dreamers
Who locked their faith inside
This is for the widows
Who think there's only one
The dying fathers that never told their sons

No one is glamourous, lonely
Follow your heart…

[Chorus repeat]

Ohh
Tomorrow the sun will shine
And dry the tears in your eyes
Suddenly love comes alive…

For one last cry
Just one last cry…

[Chorus repeat x2]

(((((((btw, everyones loved...........))))))))

everyone who loved and lost

2005-08-24T20:42:00.000+08:00

this goes out to everyone who loved and lost...

Artist: Backstreet Boys
Album: Never Gone
Title: I Still...

Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now that you're gone
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
And I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)

I try to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know

That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Ohhhh
Wish I could find you
Just like I found you then
Ohhhhh (can't live without you)

Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you

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2005-08-22T20:25:00.000+08:00

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((hey, before i start my entry, me and far were thinkin earlier on, i wonder wat ppl REALLY think of us.. i mean yes u might smile when we're infront of u but what r u ppl realllly thinkking of our personalities.. please tagg me to display wat ur views are on us (me,far,sak,lis)... dont be afraid to say smth bad, and plus, i would appreciate it if u put ur name as ur nickname or something.. if u dont wanna, i completely understand.. please share ur views and thots on our gang.. remember.. honesty is the best policy!!))

hii!

i had my eng oral today! omg i wanna do it again!! haha... weeeeeee... lemme share the experience.. in the waiting room, half of my 5/1 class was there... we were all bright and cheerful (from the outside, according to azmir)... yes some of us were nervous but mr yew (i think thats his name) thot us a breathing technic.. haha.. breatheeeee in.. and breattthh out.. and "meditate!" he kept saying..

i watched as one by one walked out of the room with smiley faces... i sat down.. curious, wat could the topic be about? how easy is it?..

it was finally my turn, after a long awaited momment...the 10 mins of preparation.. i sat down, in an air conditioned room all to myself, and read loudly..... i kept getting stuck at this word "estactic".. so i repeatedly chanted the word....."estactic! estactic!" i said, while making my way to the examiners room...

as i smiled my way til the table, the examiner asked for my ic.. i checked my pocket.. and then i said "whoops!!! im so sorry but i left it in my bag! sorrry!!" i dasheedddd out without a second to waste, got my i.c and placed it on the table... that incident had displayed a side of me i wouldnt wanna show.. my carelessness.. i apologized continuously... due to my bad first impression, my heart bagan thumping.. as if it was trying to pop out of my rib cage.. no! i dont want to be nervous, cuz if i were, i wouldnt get my ideal score..

i began reading, with my heart pounding.. the reading went fine, i stammered a little, but overall it was fine.. im disappointed cuz i wanted it to be PERFECT.. nevertheless, the picture was a scenario of a celebration.. wanting to think out of the box, i concluded that the picture was a scene of a neighbourhood gathering.... as there is no birthday cake in sight....there was a picture of a grp of teenagers, sitting down.. 2 of them not eating.. so i said that theyre not eating cuz their probably on a diet, as i can see a bicycle next to one of the boys.. he must be thinkin "hmm, if i were to eat that, will i be able to lose the pound gained on my way back home?"... omg.. they burst into laughter.. the laughter went on as i elaborated on the other characters... hahah..

so the conversation part was fun.... the topics asked (not exact questions but a outline of it) was:

Q1 ) descibe a grandparent, is ur grandparent an independent individual?
Ans) My grandfather... bla bla bla.. while they haha haha haha...

Q2 ) do you agree that teeneagers nowadays turn to their peers rather then to their family?
Ans) yes.. because if we were to share our problems with our family, they might get hurt and such and im very sensitive when it comes to disappointing my family.. bla bla.. and if i were to tell my mother a problem im having, she'd always tell me this phrase "ignore them!" which doesnt really work.. ((they laughed alllloott here!!))

Q3 ) do you think family is the most important element for the society((THE DIDNT ASK ANYONE ELSE THIS!!!!))
Ans) no, not really. i do not totally agree with this. i think an individual is more important.. someone without parents could be an idol to the society, but someone who has parents, but a bad upbringing, brings no good to a society... bla bla bla

.... so yea.. that was the end of my oral... im having bad thots now.. i DUN WANT A 'MERIT' OR 'PASS' FOR MY ENGLISH ORAL! im having thots that i might get that.. omg please noo!!

to everyone who hasnt had their oral this yr... brreakkkk a leg!!this is ur last oral! fulfil and satisy! hahaha.. do ur best.. do not be afraid.. nervousness is ur enemy..

other than oral.. skool was AWESOME.. after recess, we had no lessons at all... we smiled alot today and as usual, i got a lil crazy.. far and i smiled at jasni,khair, the gang and the infamous zul hafiz! hahahah

i better go! science practical tomorrow! gotta study! haha..tooodles!!

bye!! lotsoflove!

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2005-08-22T19:43:00.000+08:00

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2005-08-19T20:09:00.000+08:00

hahah guess wat happened today morning!!

i dun take a bus to skool so every morning, i dropped off outside skool.... wat happened today beats every other day.. i got outta the car, was abt to pick my bag.. when the tyres went over my toes!!! MY FOOT WAS BEING RUN OVER BY MY CAR! i was like... ow! ow! ow! ow! the tyres on my foot! and slowwlly he reversed the car.. omg OUCH!!!!!! hahah..
my foot swelled up in class.. it was too big to fit into my shoe.. haha..so i took out my socks,and walked without socks on..
my toes are purple!! its painfull...!! and no one to sayang me... haizz.. hahahahahahaha

so like today my friends and i got a lil hyper in class.. as usual... danced when no one was around using cikgu radio.. was supposed to return it at 2.. but ended up returnin it at 3! whooops! sorry cikgu!

today dring malay class, we began learning me-,men-,meng-, meny-..etc.. we enjoyed ourselves like hell.. i had tons of fun..its greaaat having ahmad,azmir,fadzil and hyder in class.. hahah.. chaoticcc mannn...

my sisters nagging again AS USUAL.. dont deny it kat... ure always on my shoulder.. oh well.. dun want u to spoil my day as usual....so i wont layan u..heheheee

oh well.. SARAH... OUTTT!!!!!

((to fadzil,shazana, lis..... MY NAME IS SARAH, AND I AM AN ALCOHOLIC!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH)) im kiddin btw... inside joke...

ehh.. the mooooons super duper BRIGHT!

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2005-08-17T19:21:00.000+08:00

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helllo!!

erm, feeza, ure givin me the green ligh-t to punch u..... and if i do decide to punch u one day......tooo bad!!

so yea hi everyone else!!
hahah ive got nothing to say.... oh yea.. who went to the slipknot concert!?!?!?!?!!? please let me know.. tagg me!!.... i want some pics!!!!!!! please!!!!!!!!!!!

-cheeers!-

feez,radu, i hate u.. but to everyone else...i love u

2005-08-15T19:04:00.000+08:00

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this is to regards on feezas lil bullshits.... ive got nothing much to say cuz lisa said it all...and if i were u, i would watch my back...btw, anti-feeza club rules!!!!!!!! hahahahahaa

so like im so depressed from the inside abt my malay... until today... i dunno.. i hope later cikgu or my friends wld talk me outta depression and give me the power to stand right back up... i need that...

im beginnin to study now.. haha.. yes im studyin... not something ud hear everyday but i dun really have a choice.. i wanna let daddy and mum smile when i get my results..i want them to be proud of me... i want the teachers to be proud of me..

speakin abt teachers...radu.. wait.. mrs radha... ure such a demoralising person... i would rather die than have u be my mother... who the hell says "to those who failed, u deserved it"..
wat kindda teacher r u? huh? i dunno wat u did to be a teacher for this long but just to let u noe, students do have feelings too... stop stepping all over me.. i know u hate me..but its a fact u gotta face.. just cuz uve got the power to treat me like crap, doesnt mean u can..... i respected u once, but now i dont... and im glad..

anyways... to everyone out there... besides feez and radu.. i love y'all... haha.... btw, azmi...... hi! thanks for the tagg..and hey.. we miss u.. hang out with us man!!!

and like always... fuad..come to skooool!!!!

haha.. ok ok!... gtg... study! muacks.. i love you.. and you.. and you... and you too!!!!

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2005-08-13T12:26:00.000+08:00

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feeza, this is really just meant for u to read this...

hey, if u can place ur hands on the holy Quran, and swear upon God that uve never bad-mouthed us, id still not believe u...

so to blame everything said and done on one person, who realised ure not such an angel after all, thats just horrendous.. wats wrong with u?

u cant keep shoving every bad thing uve done to other people.. u cant blame everyone else for ur misdoings.. thats one thing abt u feeza... u alwaysssss manage to turn and twist stories to make it look like the innocent one is at fault... u even manage to get the innocent one to believe that that persons at fault... if someone were to read ur blog, theyd think ure an angel straight out from heaven... take off that mask.. show them the devil u are.. stop throwing everything bad into others lives...u did that with us, and to huda, and God knows how many else.. who knows, if ur current best friends such saniah, malah and whoever else decides to turn their backs on u one day, then theyll understand wat im talkin abt.. u make everyone sound bad.. and make u sound angelic.. drop the act... its becoming old..

ure a very manipulative person,feeza, so we forgive huda for watever she mightve said abt me,sak,lis and far.. u got her to hate us at the beginning, just like how u got my friends to hate farhani at first... u noe how sick and tired we are of hearing "eh, ure not such a bad person after all" from people all around....yea, ok, ur hypnotic skills are way above the roof, but use it for some goodness... what do u get outta makin people hate other people? pleasure? joy? happiness?.. thats just wrong..

revenge on huda? making people hating her? god... doesnt that show wat kindda person u are, feeza? are u proud of urself??? ure actually showing the world how bad u are.... its just.. sad...

and just to let u noe, huda hardly tells us wat u tell her abt us... ok? we get such information from everyone else... cuz gossip goes ard... and u noe that... thats why ud wanna start such rumors abt us in the first place..

this is a warning and a threat... feeza, shut up, and stay away from my best friends, lis sak and far, and stay away from huda... cuz if u dont, ud be digging ur own grave... ull see... and just for the record, we can make people hate u too, but we'd rather die, then just be like u...u've officially burnt the last hope in us befriending u again....u blew it..

one more thing, the song torn talks abt how her virginity was broken with the wrong guy..... not abt how her feelings were torn apart.. if i were u, id remove it, unless u were really torn-sexwise-..

((btw, farhani, my friends tell me ure reallly not bad after all.. ure actuallly fun and outgoing.. u rock girl... as for me, i always knew u were nice!! hehehe))

results...

2005-08-12T18:40:00.000+08:00

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oiiiiiiiiii...
my malay results sucked!!!!!!!! im like toooo ashamed to display it...
im like on the verge of giving up.. its kindda demoralising for me... like i try soooo hard.... but then in the end, i get such horrid marks.. it pulls me down..... so badly.. the harder i seem to try, the more pathetic my results are.. haiz haiz haiz...i criiedddd my eyeesss off today in the toilet... omg, ive never seen my eyes so bloodshot red.. along with my nose.. the nose made me feel like a clown... but yea, i was super upset.. i didnt expect to do thatttt badly..... sakit hati... haiz.....

to elias.... u did pretty well.. one more step and ud get a
distinction... take that step....

to fadzil.... dont give up just yet.. uve proven urself a millllioon times... so prove urself in the end of the year... smile....k??

nevertheless,mc donalds helped a lil in cheerin me up....we kindda had it delivered to skool.... it got my mind off malay and i kindda needed that.. i dun really like crying infront of everyone....
and then after that, i had my first english lesson with my 2 students!!.. hahahah.. omg that totallllly brightened up my day... to see one of my students smile.. made me smile from ear to earrrr!!! hahaha...... wink wink!! haha... i enjoyed the lesson... lets have more! haha... well... i love *you*... hehe.... muacks!!

ok ok!... hehe... bye! i wanna sleep.. im so tired...

and to is,fuddy,jas-mi-mi,and to everyone else whom i talk to online ... hey hey hey.... the damn virus attacked my lappy again!! wtf!!! i feel like asking daddy to get me a new lappy now!! i dont care what kat says anymore!!!!!! GrRRr!!... but too bad hes not in singapore... sighhh... daddddd come back!!! baba!!!!!!

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2005-08-11T19:06:00.000+08:00

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ook.. so my eye is killlllllin meeee... i think its comin back!!! arghh! and to add salt to the wound...ive got a toothache.. from all the chocolate i ate outta depression!!

i just wanna sayy
my brothers are the bestt bestt friends i know.. especially fuad... ur advises are really good.. jasmi... urs is just... haha.... all ill say is stopppppp whining!!!!

loving u both to bits and bits of pieces!!!!! muackks!!!!!

fuad... when r u gonna come to skool to get ur prezzie!!!!

why do i love you??

2005-08-10T14:42:00.000+08:00

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everytime we lie awake
after every hit we take
every feeling that i get
but i haven't missed you yet
every room-mate kept awake
by every silent scream we make
all the feelings that i get
but i still don't miss you yet

only when i stop to think about it

i hate everything about you
why do i love you
i hate everything about you
why do i love you

everytime we lie awake
after every hit we take
every feeling that i get
but i haven't missed you yet

only when i stop to think about it

i hate everything about you
why do i love you
i hate everything about you
why do i love you

only when i stop to think about you,
i know
only when you stop to think about me,
do you know

i hate everything about you
why do i love you
you hate everything about me
why do you love me

i hate
you hate
i hate
you love me

i hate everything about you
why do i love you

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2005-08-10T14:26:00.001+08:00

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2005-08-09T19:24:00.000+08:00

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i just read a tagg by 'weirdo'... haiz... whoever u r... u made me feel bad...
i kindda regret writing what i wrote but no use cryin over spilled milk,rite? but wat did u expect me to say or do? hearing people gossip and spreading false rumors abt me is so..... i dont noe if there is a word for it.. i mean whos the mean one? someone who gossips or the gossip victim who feels so stepped on and is just displaying her anger? i mean its not right for me to display my anger the way i did but sometimes when ure so angry, u dont think straight.. when im angry, i dont think straight.

hearing such false stories abt me does play a role in makin me upset and angry... wouldnt u feel upset if someone said something bad abt u behind ur back? eventually, this sorrow would turn to anger.. thats wat happened to me.. so yea.. im sorry if i offended u,weirdo, in any way....

this goes out to whoevers out there... gossiping is just wrong.... i mean sticks and stones may break ur bones but words will never hurt me? thats not true... sometimes words can kill someone mentally... and ones that happens, ur better off dead...

if u dont like someone, justttttt keep it that way...dont stay stuff abt them cuz they do hurt...they can kill.....

haiz......................

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2005-08-08T20:31:00.000+08:00

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haiz... im so bummed up....... i mean someone decided to send an invisible email to an invisible girl........ how nice. brightened up my day (saracstically)... argh... i hate u..... haizzz......... im like feelin all kinds of feelings... and none of them are good.. and theyre all abt *you*......haiz......argh!!!! i just..arghh... i dun wanna say smth ill regret....

oh btw *****, abt the "8 guys thing".. its actually very flatterin... 8 guys.. all for me?? nooooooo way!! awesome!!...... bitch.

i hate everyone!!!!! esp u........
get lost..

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2005-08-08T18:51:00.000+08:00

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BoO yA!!!

today was..wat was it... oh yea.. national day celebration in our skool.. haha i wore a purple baju kurung.. i finallllly looked like a purple cow! hehe... lis and sak wore a cheong sam... and faridah as usual, tryin to impress z.h by wearing a pengantin baju kurung.. pheeewwweeeett! hahahahahaa... omg that was so minah-ish!..haha.....

the performances were wicked..... hegan kang (or smth like that) was there!!! (hes a finalist in project superstar or smth like that...) oh well...wooo hoo!!! wo ai niii hegan!! hahahha i dun even noe hu u r but wooohooo!!!! ahahahahahah....
is SUCKED!!!!! u morron.. i hate u.... i hate u i hate u i hate u.. hahahahaha... ok ok.. u were alll greatness.. im so jealous of u... ur voice... woooowness!!.... sak lis and esp. faridah were m.e.l.t.i.n.g with every note u sang.... and mona wished she was there cuz u sang her song!!!....
the indian dance grp...woooowww people!!u guys... managed to rock the core outta the world!!
the malay dance was cute.. the chinese dance was interesting... elias urs was just weirdly cute.. hahaha..
and cikgu gazali rocked too.. ahhahahaha... ROCK ON!

hmm...clothes.....er... lemme see.... everyone looked nice.. a lil slutty some of em were but hey, sexiness is vital? haha.. someone on the other hand, wore a scarf... and started yellin and screamin.. i mean hey girl.. why ya disrespecting scarfs?... i mean if u wanna wear it, behave like a lady, u animal..... and one more thing.... do i look like a machine to u to date 8 guys at one time?? honey.. im not u... (thank God)..... erm.. one more thing.. suicide is the answer for u.... if i were u i wouldve killed myself a looooong time ago... ********** bte *****... u suck.... i mean suck is a understatement!!!!! the world is a better place without u....

haha... ok ok.. im being mean but means goooood for some people!! hehehe... oook.... so like far was just over, she added an entry.. and i did not tell her to write ' i love z.h'.. she wrote it on her free will but was just shy.. hehe... z.h... ure a lucky man.. haha...

btw.. fuadd!!!!!! u suckkk!!! why werent u there!!! im so mad at u!! (hahahahah)..... GRRRrRRrRrRrR!!! haha.. u @$$!!!!
and jasmi..... go for the minah short skirt!
love u both to bits! muacks to the 2 of u!

farhan afro..ur so afroliciousnessly delicious! haha.. refering to ur hair that is.. haha..

nis.. loved wat u wore... prettiness..

fahimah... ure so prettttty!!

zia.. good luck hip hopppin nigga!

and to the rest... u guys rock!

one more time, props to everyone who got dressed for today and to the ex-brdies who made an effort to come to skool unlike fuddy.. (GrRrRr!! haha)... Rockkk onn!!!

SaRaH.. OUT!

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2005-08-08T17:58:00.000+08:00

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hi...faridah here...well this is my first time write this entry...thanks to my Sarah... i realli dont noe wat to write but i would like to say a few words to all my best frenz-Sarah,Sakinah and Lisa..here i go..hey guys, i realli llloooovveeee our friendship!!!!!! WE RAWKS MAN!!! Thanks for everything u guys done to me...U gals have made me who i am todae....crazy and weird and bla bla bla!!!! We have gone through a lot of challenges and we actually manage to setle it together and till todae...we are still together as one!!!Theres a lot of misunderstanding going on but we manage to solve it although sometimes we done harsh action on one another.. This is the frindship i will always treasure till im dead!!!!!!! I LOVE U GALS!!!!!!!!!!MUACKSSSSS!!!! Before i go..i would like to say something about friendship.....DONT EVER BE HYPOCRITE!!! thats all...got to go now but last but not least.....I 'LOVE' u ZH!!!!haha... sarah force me to say this...hehe...byeeeee.......muaaacks!!!!

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2005-07-27T19:35:00.000+08:00

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gonna keep this short and simple..:
I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU I HATE RADU

btw, missin u baby...

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2005-07-26T22:10:00.000+08:00

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dark side:

ARGH!! I HATE RADU!!!!!
BURN IN HELL WITCH!
omg.. ive always tried to avoid hating her but shes toooooo much! i mean today, during our 'special programme' ((i sound retarted)), michael and the gang started playing catchin in the class and crap and tables were movin and bla bla bla.. yet RADU didnt say a word.. she actually joked around with them as well.. wtf!! i mean yesterday, i was lookin at jessica's art piece and RADU started yellin at me about how shes sacrificing her time for us, and that this is the time to concentrate on only maths... wtf.. shes so biased!! yong ming and her have got this 'special bond' and like today, i have no idea wats wrong with yong ming but he was like sleeping during the class and she didnt say a word.. and when he woke up in a bad mood, he talked to RADU so aggresively, and yet she just laughed at it... i mean if i said what he said, i wouldve probably gotten suspended for years.. or even decades.. to add salt to the wound, she left class as soon as all the chinese have left, leaving me, sak,far, azmir and sean feelin like fools... i mean WOMAN, are we THAT invisible!?!?!.... i mean at least have the decency to wait, or at least fulfil ur resposibilities as a teacher....... damn u...
i cant hate RADU cuz itll affect my maths, but like shes pushin it... shes gone too far this time.. so yea.. RADU I HATE U.. I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U!!!!

bright side:
hmm... someone smiled at me whom ive never seen him smile before.. haha pretty flattering, but his smile couldnt beat someone elses smile.. wow... and eye contact too... u noe who u r! haha... thats a big step taken! haha.. u look better when u smile, and lookin at me instead of the floor.. so keep those white teeth glowing baby! hahaha ok,ok i gotta do my f&n... haha.. bye!! and muackz to that special someone!!! haha...

btw....... sing it with me kids!!

I R BABOON MEETS STAR CARTOON
CUZ BABOONS BETTER THAN WEASEL..
inspired by mrs radha @#$%^ing krishnan a.k.a radu...

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2005-07-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

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dark side:

haiz.. i dun get it..its like...im alwaysss listenin to probs.. im always there for people.. and im always the one who helps to cheer up those who are blue.. but like... i feel so pathetic and unappreciated.. haiz.. im like mad and upset at the same time.. i dunno how i should feel.. shld i ignore it?? haiz...
today i was thinkin of someone im not supposed to think of.. i mean wat else would have popped in my mind.. everyone in front of me were hugging and kissin and stuff... and if i thot abt someone, itll just bring me down cuz i now thatll never happen...... so i thot of someone else..... haiz.. i do miss him but i cant.. im not supposed to.. its soo wrong..........

bright side:

i went to sentosa today.. had tons of fun... wore my glasses and thus mat-skimmers and mar-sentosa's were kacau-ing me all the way... i was realllly flattered but oculdnt do anythin!! mum was there!!! wastedddd... haha.. esp syaham, ure so hot.. and ur smile... whhoooaa!!!!.... hahahhahaha.... ok ok.. i need to eat smth.. ive been starvin since noon.... adios amigo!

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2005-07-22T22:06:00.000+08:00

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hii!!!
ive been like on war with my comp for the past 2 days.. refuses to connect.. makin me miss someone reallly bad... weird..today i dont miss that person.. altho ive been waitin for that person to appear online since 6........... hahaha.... im such a geek... ook so like today was soooo weird... i totally lost my mood at the beginnin of skool til recess... i mean nothing happened at home.. it was when i went to skool... and i saw smth.. and kept seeing one thing and another.. it got my blood boiling... so like i kept away from my bezzies for a while and chaaattteeddd with azmir.. haha..
he was tellin me abt why cable connection sucks.. he was like.. its too slow and stuff but i totally defended cable.. but rite now... its annoyin me cuz its so SLOW!!!!!.. hahah...
anyways, in the hall after recess, i was sittin quietly and i burst into laughter.. i had tears too.. it was soo freaky.. my friends were like freaked out.. they were like.. sarah r u ok?
i just found it hilarious how a girl so crazy like me could manage to shut up for 1/2 a skool day... hahaha.. its just weirdddddd!!!.. haha..
hmm.. its so long already.. and i have more to say but oh well.. i gotta go... so...
soo loooongg and goood nigggghttt.... muacckz sugarbum!!

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2005-07-19T19:16:00.000+08:00

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whoooaa... haha im so tired...haha today was weird in skool.. in the mornin,i said hi to zul (sooo weird).... and the at noon, i said hi to ZULHAFIZ bin Zakariyah..<--FaRiDaH'S HoT HuNk!.. hahah it was sooo wrongg..but i kindda said it on behalf of her.. haha..
BtW,A ShoUt OuT To OuR CrUsHiNg AdMiReRs!!
YOU GUYS ARE HOOTT!!!!!
anyways, i like ran ard chasin sak today with a butterfly/moth/or watever it was in my hand..it was soo much fun.. then faridah chased me and lis after i splashed her with rain water... SHE STARTED IT!!
somethings so wrong with me.. im like eatin a lot.. thats so not me... wonder wats happenin.. haha.. depressed maybe.. hahahahha..... or plain 'retardation'...
faridah hit me with her hip.. i practicallly fleew to the wall of zulhafiz's class with a loud THUMP! i hurt my hip a lil.. its all blueblackish and stuff, thanks to Faridah..... power of the hips! haha...
btw, brooo fuddy..... surprise surprise will be comin ur way!!
i gtg! haha....toodles!!

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2005-07-18T17:35:00.000+08:00

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wookie.. so like today, me and my friends went WILD..actually we're alwys this way...hhahaha... anyways, ive got this gross cut thingy on my arm... kindda hurt it during a ride at 'Escape'.. its so weird..i didnt feel a thing til i saw blood drippin and traced it to my arm...
we went realllly wild at Escape...i swear, i think im way above the normal crazy rate for humans!!
so like we're all plannin to wear stuff for racial harmony day..i mean hey! its our last year.. lets go crazy while we still can!!!

today in class.. i asked ms fatona ((our f&n teacher whos sufferin cuz of us)) if we could go on an excursion... i mean hey! outside-class-lessons are WICKED!! this whole years been awesome for far.. check out our trip list...
English,Maths--> ZOO baby!!
physics--> err, wats it called? some polytechnic thingy
Malay --> Bowling*
F&N--> some food thingy*
Geography--> overhead bridge (done that)
Chemistry--> science centre (done that)
Social Studies--> i shall talk to mrs rajah!!! muahaha!!!

*(not really comformed yet)

ROCK ON BROADRICK BABY!!!!

ive gotta start my maths.. wait.. geo... wtf.. both.. hahaha.. catchya later sugarpuff!! muacks to whoevers out there!!!

Creamy sugar Anyone??

2005-07-16T15:10:00.000+08:00

Creamy sugar Anyone??

muahahah

rastaliciousnessifyinglycated

2005-07-16T09:55:00.000+08:00

rastaliciousnessifyinglycated

Ello!
this is like the first entry...hahah.. and im clueless abt everything!! haha ask lis.. she should know.. i kept buggin her abt this!!.. hahah... so like after a few minutes, ive gotta get dressed for my really hated arabic lessons!! haha..... i didnt even take a shower yet!! haha u didnt really need to know that.. so anyways, i better get going... u noe how arabs like to nag! :x!! haha catcha later!!

xoxo!

2005-07-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

boo!